Falling Book 2
I’m addicted to it. It’s how I feel alive. It’s the only thing that’s real any more.
And now I have to sit around and discuss it like it’s physics or calculus. I can’t do it. I can’t pretend that it’s some sterile academic topic. Violence isn’t sterile. It isn’t calm. It’s pulsing. It’s alive.
It’s my drug.
Until I met Abby, I never wanted anything beyond the next fight. Never considered that I might finally find a way back to the land of the living.
Now? Now I find myself dreaming of a woman with golden eyes.
But I can never be with her. Because I am not whole. And I never will be again.
But I cannot stay away.
And loving her might finally be what breaks me.
Another powerful read filled with things we don’t usually think about. Our soldiers who come home, not necessarily outwardly injured but injured just the same.
You never know what might trigger some memory for an ex-soldier. PTSD is alive and well, this is a story that deals with that truth and the things that can and do define it.
Josh suffers from PTSD in more than just the anger and violence, there is also anxiety and it’s effects. When he meets Amy he knows he should stay away but she soothes him, helps him focus.
Abby has had a lot of pain in her life, she doesn’t want to like Josh, she doesn’t want to need him but she does. This scene is right after their class on Violence, it is when they introduce themselves.
“What’s your name?” His voice is low and quiet. Steady now. Almost calm.
I turn, unable to avoid looking at him now.
It dawns on me that no, I don’t know his name.
I stand there for a moment, hesitant. The last time this happened, I fell too far, too fast.
This time will be different. Because I’m not going to make the same mistake twice.
It’s like standing too close to an electrical current.
The simplicity of the question is deceptively benign.
I’m drawn to him in a way that is unhealthy and dangerous. He’s already consuming my thoughts, drawing my attention away from the matter at hand and luring me down a dark corridor where only dark thoughts and whispered need twist together.
I hold up one hand, needing to break the spell or whatever is going on between us. My hand collides with his chest, and I am flush against the stark reminder of this man’s strength and power and capability to do violence.
Before the rational part of my brain kicks in, I brush my fingertips gently over the bruised and damaged skin above his eye.
He goes still beneath my touch. That full bottom lip opens a little. A tiny space, but I can feel the heat of his breath on my wrist.
His eyes are locked on mine. I’m trapped, unable to move. I’m not sure I want to. I’m furious for him but I’m frozen, burning where my fingers touch his skin.
I cannot move. Cannot look away.
“I’m Josh,” he whispers. An answer to an unasked question.
I swallow the sudden lump blocking my throat. “Abby.”
“Abby.” He repeats my name and it sounds something like a prayer, whispered in reverence and awe.
Break My Fall (Falling Book 2) (Kindle Locations 549-561). Jessica Scott. Kindle Edition.
A slow building relationship with many ups and downs, and some very hot scenes. All together a thought provoking, emotional and intense read.
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Jessica Scott is the USA Today bestselling author of novels set in the heart of America’s Army. She is an active duty army officer, a veteran of the Iraq war, is the mother of two daughters, three cats and three dogs, and wife to a retired NCO. She and her family are currently wherever the army has sent her.
She has written for the New York Times At War blog, War on the Rocks, PBS Point of View Women and War and has been featured in Esquire Magazine as an American of the Year in 2012.
She has published 11 novels and novellas about soldiers returning from war and has hit the USA Today Bestseller list twice. She has compiled two nonfiction projects about her time in Iraq and the return home.
She has recently completed a master’s Degree in sociology from Duke, a Masters Degree in Telecom Management from University of Maryland University College, BA in Cultural Studies from State University of New York. She is currently pursuing a phd in sociology.
She’s been featured as one of Esquire Magazine’s Americans of the Year for 2012.