Lucy

I’m restless.
I can’t put my finger on it.
I have all I’ve ever wanted.
I should not rock the boat of my perfect life.
Daddy takes care of every detail.
But there’s something missing.
I need more.
Even if it means risking everything.

Roman

I’m worried.
I’ve never been more nervous.
All I want is for my little to be happy.
But I’m no longer sure I’m enough for her.
Especially when she’s so clearly full of doubt.
She wants more.
She deserves the world.
Is it time to let her go?

The Surrender series contains BDSM relationships and Lucy and Roman’s is a Daddy Dom/Little. On top of his normal business Roman also owns the BDSM Club Surrender. This is the third book in the series and the second one involving Lucy and Roman.

When we left Lucy and Roman they had reached an understanding for her to attend college and not remotely. Now she’s graduating, a milestone in her life but she’s also feeling the need for something more. She’s just not sure what.

For her graduation party Lucy wanted to stay in her relatively adult clothing and not transition into her role as a little. Master Roman wasn’t prepared for her to ask that and as a result she faced punishment before the dinner party takes place.

It’s the next day that we get more insight as to Lucy’s restlessness.

This is a favorite scene.

The only times I have not been twelve in this house have been the moments when I’ve left for school and the moments when I return before changing into my at-home clothes.

I won’t break my role. I’m comfortable in it. I don’t even know how to be his equal anymore. I don’t want to be. Our arrangement is perfect for both of us. He’s caring and nurturing and doting and loving. And I crave all those things. They make me feel safe and loved.

I take a slow breath and meet his gaze. “I’m nervous about what happens next, now that I’ve gotten my degree.” That much is totally true.

He leans forward, putting his elbows on his knees so that his face is more level with mine. “Nothing has to change, blossom. I’m so proud of you. I also know you’re determined and you like to work hard. I had thought you would work for me.”

“I’ve always worked for you,” I point out. I’ve worked fewer hours in recent years, but I’ve still helped him in his office.

“More,” he points out. “As much as you would like. Part time. Full time. Whatever makes you happy.”

What if what makes me happy would be working outside the house?

I bite my lower lip. I’ve thought about this. A lot. Working here for him in his home office means being his little at all times even when I’m working. I’m not sure how I feel about that.

I’ve enjoyed the times when I’ve left this house to go to class the past few years. We struck a deal, and I left here every day as both his little and as a regular college student.

The agreement was perfect. A win-win for both of us. Master Roman knew there was no way in hell I would ever let anyone find out what I wore under my college clothes, which gave him an unnecessary comfort. Unnecessary because I would ever be interested in another man anyway. I’m in love with him. Head over heels. I’ve never even considered looking at any of the boys in my classes. And that’s what they are to me. Boys.

Master Roman is almost twice my age. He’s also twice the man of any college kid. I’m clear on that.

But now I’m not in college. I have a business degree. My peers have been interviewing and accepting jobs for months. I’ve watched them stress and fret. I’ve also seen the girls come and go in pencil skirts, blouses, and pumps. Their hair professional. Their nails done. Makeup perfect.

I’ve watched all this from the side, a tight ball of jealousy forming in the pit of my stomach. Part of me craves that transition to adulthood. What if I tell Master Roman that’s what I want? I know in my heart he won’t like it. That’s why I’ve remained mute.

“Lucy…” His voice is stern.
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The conversation they have is more one sided, with Lucy not contributing all the relevant facts. All this leads up to Lucy leaving until she can decide what it is she wants and can be open and honest about it. Roman deserves nothing less and a BDSM relationship has to be bound by trust and honesty or it can be detrimental to both side.

I really love the way this book shows both Roman and Lucy what they’ve started doing wrong. Lucy turns to Claudia for some help and Julius, Beck, and Levi offer a safe place for her to think. She does however, end up going to the apartment Roman set up for her near the campus, to be alone with her thoughts.

When Lucy’s half brother shows up, things take a very interesting twist.

This is a very emotional book from both inside and out of the BDSM relationship.

I can’t wait to see what’s next in this series.

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Becca Jameson

Becca Jameson is a USA Today bestselling author of over 90 books. She is most well-known for her Wolf Masters series and her Fight Club series. She currently lives in Houston, Texas, with her husband and Goldendoodle. Two grown kids pop in every once in a while too! She is loving this journey and has dabbled in a variety of genres, including paranormal, sports romance, military, and BDSM.

A total night owl, Becca writes late at night, sequestering herself in her office with a glass of red wine and a bar of dark chocolate, her fingers flying across the keyboard as her characters weave their own stories.

During the day–which never starts before ten in the morning!–she can be found jogging, running errands, or reading in her favorite hammock chair!