I’m not crazy.
I’m the product of a schizophrenic mother who seemed more evil than human, and a bipolar father who didn’t love me enough to stay.
But I’m not crazy.
Now I’m struggling with life and question myself and my decisions every single day. Are these signs? Red flags? I won’t let myself look too close.
I refuse to be crazy.
Then four men swoop in just when I need them. They’re protective, supportive, and everything I never had even though we’re unconventional. I want to be the person they need me to be. I need it.
But I’m afraid…that I’m crazy.
Lilith is fighting what she believes is inevitable, she’s going to go crazy just like her mother and father before her. She regularly visits her mother in a high security psychiatric hospital. These visits are not always pleasant as her mother has good and bad days. Lilith uses these visits to ground her in the here and now.
Her therapist Harper, is also her best friend, perhaps not the best choice but one she feels she can trust. They often meet for a girls night sometimes preceded by a session.
As I read this book I felt Lilith’s fears of ‘going crazy’ and her struggle to stay sane. Her playing the cello her salvation of sorts as she can get lost in the music. We meet Randolf the conductor and Annie another musician during rehearsals. We get to hear conversations with her mother’s lawyer Autumn, regarding Drake Daniels’ desire to meet with her to talk about what happened to his brother Eli.
I fell in love with each of the very different men who become hers. The first one she meets on her way in to see Harper, he openly admits to his phobia, a fear of small pets and looks scholarly. We don’t learn his name is Atticus until a bit later though when she asks Harper.
The second she meets when Harper takes her to meet her boyfriend Brett. Kenzo is tending bar when she initially meets him but they get together later on in this story.
The third she meets in a park while have lunch between rehearsals and practicing. She and Ambrose have a scintillating conversation as they eat and relax under a tree. He introduces himself as an author and researcher.
The forth is a pharmacy tech at the grocery where she picks up her birth control prescription. His name badge told her his name is Saint, he was kind before they met outside of the store. He suggested a lavender and vanilla bubble bath from a shelf she was perusing.
It’s a rather complicated story as she doesn’t gossip with Harper about her new boyfriends. Yet there is a lot of turmoil in Lilith’s life.
I was truly enthralled by this story. It is powerful, scary and the ending took me by surprise.
I really can’t wait for the second book of this duet.
5 Contented Purrs for Blake!
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She attended ten different schools growing up, so books became her constant friend. Escaping into books of all different genres made life fun and exciting. Blake was also raised on music and still blasts it through the house and car at every opportunity.
She has a weird sense of humor and a penchant for chocolate milk. It only makes sense she would one day go on to write her own stories.